sunbeam

the morning rays caressed her...kissing away the pain writ upon her face

she hardly spoke a word- the depths of her silence was deafening

she turned towards me...smiled the saddest smile i had ever seen

and yet i could never take my eyes off her-

her face nestled between her long soft curls-the pale searching eyes

her delicate arms outstretched-as if begging for one last embrace

she was vulnerability personified.

i could look at her for hours and yet never comprehend the ambivalence behind her tragic smile

was she in love? i could not tell

she may have been-once or twice- was she happy?

i looked at her-again-i looked hard-she was happy

her lips curved into a smile-as if to mock me-she must have read my mind

she turned around to face the mirror and strangely enough, i knew what she was thinking

she thought about the days when she laughed and cried at the same time

she remembered vividly the pleasure that pain brought along.......

she closed her eyes-content and happy-and yet when she opened them

two large drops of tears rolled moistened her cheeks

she confused me-she confused herself too

i could live with her forever........ she eluded me like a dream

and yet i loved her- she was a part of me- i could never let her go

she was the reason i laughed, i cried, i survived, i existed

she was the reason i believed....she was ME!!!